light at the end of the tunnel

light at the end of the tunnel
Originally uploaded by aerolith.

Those blessed with a clear and open channel
and those blessed with foresight
and those blessed with self control
and those blessed with plans
and blueprints
and goals
and a contract to succeed,
dip a precious toe in the reservoir I've collected
at the brink of this Hoover Dam of shit I've made.
Pass that blessed-be to me, you angels of normalcy,
you kissable People Magaziners,
you healthy, budget-loving churchies.
I am trying so hard to admire you.
Please - I am only asking you to join me
in a game of affirmations.
Tell me I'm alright.

Then leave me alone.